Do you ever have those days where either you just feel nostalgic or you find something from your past that brings up old memories? Do you ever have those weeks or months were you savor the things from your past? The good old days with your friends, your first car, your old boyfriends, your old high school job, high school.
Let me tell you, I opened a time capsule this past weekend. It is amazing to me just how much stuff I have kept from my past. Old writing assignments, old letters from friends, some as far back as middle school, old journals, trinkets from trips and friends. All of this got me to thinking about all of the boys from my past. Yes, I want to call them boys because most of them were. There was, however, one man that my mind wanders off to every now and then. I wonder what he is up to. Wonder what my life would be like had things worked out between us.
Now come on ladies, I know all of you, even though married, have that old fling from your past that you think about from time to time. Let's be honest with ourselves here. I am sure even our husbands have that one woman. Its okay to think about it, to wonder, as long as you don't regret what you have now.
I wonder, do you have dreams about your old boyfriends? I do. Sometimes the dreams are great, and those are the ones where the old boyfriend comes back into my life (or I go back in time), and things end up just the way they are now, with me married to my wonderful husband. Sometimes in the dream I haven't yet met my husband, but I know that the boyfriend from the past isn't The One, and that we have to go our separate ways.
These dreams always get me to thinking about the old boyfriend and how his life has turned out. Is he as happy as I am? If things had worked out between us, where would we be now? How would my life be different?
But at the end of the thought process, I always come back to the same conclusion: I am so happy and content with the way my life is right now that I wouldn't change a single thing. I love my husband more than anything, and I love my daughter just as much. If I wasn't with my husband, my daughter wouldn't be here. How could I ever want that to be different? I couldn't. While it is fun to be nostalgic sometimes, it is more fun to remember how happy I am with my real life.