Sorry I haven't been around the last few days. DH and I went to his grandpa's for Christmas and I haven't had internet access since we left Wednesday night. Well, I have, but it is via my phone, and while the technology is great, it still isn't that great yet. I did catch up on some blogs while I was away, but was unable to comment. As it is midnight, my catching up may have to wait until tomorrow. :( I did want to do a quick post tonight before turning in though.
Our Christmas this year was awesome. Of course the baby factor helped boost that through the roof. But in addition to that, I got some great gifts. DH finally bought me a Wi.i. I know, we are seriously behind the times. Those things came out like what, 4 years ago? I'm just glad we are finally joining the ranks. The funny thing is, he didn't want one because he didn't think he would play it. He bought me the console along with two games... and then he bought two games for him. HA! Not only that, but he has played it more than I have so far. I like to laugh at him for that.
Today I went out and bought the Wi.i fit because that is really what I wanted all along. I played a bunch of the games tonight and holy cow, they really do work you! I think this combined with joining Wei.ght Wat.chers at work and taking yoga classes at work will really help me finally shed my infertility weight. In addition to that, I am hoping it boosts our ability to conceive #2 when we're ready in just under two months.
When it comes to being back in the TTC #2 saddle, I can honestly say I am gearing up for the battle already. I have a stock of pregnancy tests and a stock of OPKs in my cupboard. Not only that, but I ordered vitamins today that supposedly help boost your conception ability. I'm hoping that with all of the steps I'm taking we won't end up back in the infertility chair again. I find that the closer I get to being able to get back on the horse, the more I want to be sure I'm ready. I've got to pack the saddle bags for the journey.
The sad thing is, I kind of feel my naivety creeping back in. The bitter infertile part of me has been pushed to the back of my brain for so long I feel giddy at our chances when we are ready to start trying again. That kind of scares me. I don't like being naive when it comes to this kind of thing. I enjoy having the thoughts, "Wouldn't it be great if we got pregnant almost right away?" But at the same time, the infertile in me wants to give myself a good slap across the cheek. Then I remind myself that I'm not back in the saddle yet and I just need to remember not to get too excited, but that it is okay to get a little excited. I just pray that my next journey on that horse is easier than the last one.
I know that our first month will be a throw away while my body gets used to not being on any form of birth control. The second month might be a throw away too, but only time will tell.
I guess we'll find out in a few month's time if R was right about his prediction for when we would conceive. All of his readings have been spot on so far.
That reminds me, I doubt anyone really notices, but I deleted all of my blog posts regarding my old friend. They're all gone! I came to the realization this weekend that I was completely over it. Every time a thought of her pops into my head, it is instantly snuffed out with an, "I just don't care." The frequency of my thoughts about her has dropped off to maybe one or two a day from a dozen or so a day. I no longer think about her, or care. Whenever I feel her trying to creep back in, I send out a vibe that says, "I don't care. I want you out of my life for good. Its over. Don't contact me. Don't think about me. We're DONE." This time, unlike every other time in the past, I mean it. It is so liberating!
Anyway, its almost 12:30, so I am going to run off to bed. I will catch up on blogs tomorrow. I hope you all had a wonderful, and safe Christmas.
But before I run away completely, I just want to give a shout out to Noelle and tell her congrats on her pregnancy! Keep your feet on the ground sweetie and your thoughts in the right place. This pregnancy will work!
P.S. My creepy BIL didn't make it to Christmas at grandpa's. Praise be to heaven, the day was PERFECT!