Tuesday, December 1, 2009

I Love You Long Time

All right friends, here's the skinny. Depression happens to run very much on my dad's side of the family... along with anxiety. (What is it with the double wammies? Endo+PCOS. Depression+Anxiety). As you can imagine, I've been on the whole range of anti-deps and anti-anxiety pills over the years. Tried them all, hated them all... until now. When I was battling PPD my dad told me he had gotten on cit.alopram and had been on it for a couple of years. He had all of the same side effects I did while on all of the other meds, and told me this one didn't give him any. He also told me it gave him a longer fuse, so things tended to upset him a lot less.

I went to my (now) old GP and asked for the prescription by name a few months ago. She told me she wanted to put me on wel.butrin and I told her I didn't want that. Especially as she said it could make my panic attacks worse. When I started seeing the shrink shortly after that appointment, she recommended me to a new GP who didn't hesitate to give me exactly what I asked for. The first couple weeks were fantastic. I could literally feel the effects of it on my brain. Then the dose quit working and I had to double it.

I have been on 40 mgs of cit.alopram for about 4 months now and I LOVE the stuff. I take it before bed because it helps me sleep, and then I get to enjoy all of the positive effects during the day. I can't believe how happy it has made me. I look back and wonder why the deuce I waited so long to get on it. Not only does it affect me, but it also affects everyone around me. I am so much happier, which in turn makes everyone else happier, including my dogs.

In addition to that, my fuse is almost non-existent. You know how they say don't sweat the small stuff? I don't anymore. I just don't care. I'm too happy to care.

I have to say, I used to be a slightly shy person before, but since I have been on this magic pill, I have been so outgoing its crazy. I'm making new friends left and right. Apparently they also use this medication for people with social anxiety. I can see why.

Do I recommend it? ABSO-FRICKEN-LUTELY!


Noelle said...

Thank you for sharing your secret!

Depression runs deep in my family as well. There is such a genetic component to this disease, don't you think?

I often question how people can say that it is bad to take psychiatric drugs. My friend who means well told me that if I just cut out all gluten and milk products that I wouldn't be depressed anymore, and that my medication is like a poison.

Our medicine is what enables us to get out of bed in the morning. One would never tell a diabetic not to take their medication. We have a disease, just like them.

Thank you for sharing. I am thankful that it has helped you so much, and in turn, this helps you to help others, like me and other bloggers :)

Potters said...

Man what I would do to get me a sample of that stuff.

Jaymee said...

so happy that you found something that works for you. i find it to be one of the worst things about depression and anxiety, dealing with finding something that works to help you fight it.

AnxiousMummyto3 said...

It is so fantastic that the meds are working that well for you, sweetie. You must feel like a whole new person! Now you can finally get on with enjoying your life...:)