Gutted

This picture is worth a thousand words. I think it is an accurate representation of how I felt tonight. A coworker of mine carved this pumpkin for our work pumpkin carving contest. Of course it won! Its fantastic!

I hope you all had a fantastic Halloween. Ours was pretty fun. The day started out great, but then I somehow cheesed (ticked off) the fates, and my day took a quick turn for the worst. This morning dawned absolutely gorgeous, perfect for taking pictures, which is exactly what we did this morning. My best friend brought over her Super Camera and we spent the morning taking family pictures for our upcoming Christmas cards, as well as some age marker photos of the baby. It was perfect.

Afterward my friend and I went to the party store to plan a surprise for her sister's birthday on Monday. It all just went downhill from there. Upon getting in the car, I remembered I had an appointment to take the munchkin to the doctor for her flu shot within the next hour. We decided to hurry at the party store, and then rush home afterward. Ha! Of course I chose the wrong route out of the parking lot and we spent more time sitting at a dysfunctional stop light than we did driving. I had called DH and asked him to please get the munchkin up and have her ready as soon as I got home. She normally eats around the time of her pedi visit, but today she was going to have to eat late so I could make it to appointment on time.

Long story short, we were almost 15 minutes late for our appointment simply because we were going to a pedi office I had never been to before and got lost. While trying to find the office, I noticed my car was overheating. Fantastic. While waiting our turn for the shot, I called the mechanic and let them know I would be bringing my car in. On our way out of the pedi appt, I could feel my darling baby girl's tummy growling. You'd never know she was hungry just by looking at her though, she was so happy. Luckily I had some little crunchies in the car, and put some on a burp rag for her to eat on the way to the mechanic.

We hit Every.Single.Red.Light JUST as it turned red all of the way to the mechanic, which wasn't a short distance away from where we were. I am ashamed to say, I lost my cool. Something I rarely do around my daughter, but my car was overheating, and I had a starving baby in the back seat. I was beyond frazzled. Not to mention, I was also starving.

I'll skip details, but it turns out my car is having some major issues. We're not friends right now. She is absolutely bleeding my dry, and it seems to be all happening at once. Basically, I am looking at dumping over a grand into my car for this weekend alone. That doesn't include my pending paint job next week. Yeah, I was in tears by the time I got home from picking my car up, as it sat, blowing off literal steam in my driveway tonight. It has to go back to the shop first thing Monday morning.

Upon walking in the door, I looked over and saw one of the biggest spiders I have ever seen in my entire life sitting casually on my hardwood floor, right smack in the middle of the room.

I HATE SPIDERS!!!!

They give me the willies, and I can't squish them because they always jump at me when I try. So I screamed, "What the HELL is that?!" to DH. Even he was shocked at the size. I burst into tears again, proclaiming it just really was not my day, as he did his manly duty and squished the spider with my shoe.

All I have to say is thank you to the makers of my antidepressants. They really do help me weather days like this a lot better than I would have otherwise.

The night did get better though. I dressed the munchkin up in her Halloween costume and together, we gave out candy to the trick-or-treaters. Every time we opened the door, the munchkin would squeal with delight to see all of the fun costumes. It is amazing how much one little smile or squeal of delight from her can make all of the worries of the world dissolve away.

After a heartfelt talk with my dad tonight, I remembered that life is about living in the moment. Car troubles, cleaning the house, money, and everything else is trivial. The most important thing in this life is to enjoy the time we are given and spending it with those we love and care about. Nothing else really matters.