Wednesday, February 24, 2010

The Party is Over!

Today I went to yoga at lunch. As I got into the groove of things, a wave of sadness hit me as I craved my favorite pregnancy meal, Chi.ck-fil-a chicken nuggets, waffle fries, and a chocolate shake with a cherry on top. I was so overcome with grief because I wanted so badly to do that again, and here I was, facing the fact that it might not happen.

Then I got mad.

So I started stretching through the poses harder. I started taking out my sadness and anger in each move. As I did so, my anger turned into fight.

I am taking this bull by the horns, and I am going to run with it.

I am done with this pity party dammit!

I AM going to get pregnant again.

We're going to go through the testing. We're going to get second and third opinions. We're going to find out what we're up against. Then we're going to do the surgery, wait for my body to heal, and then

I WILL BRING ANOTHER CHILD INTO THIS WORLD!

I know what I am up against. I know the risks, and I am willing to take my chances. The chances are higher everything will be fine than not, even if it is a slim margin.

If worst comes to worst, I will end up on bed rest in a hospital so that I can get immediate care if I rupture. My baby will be fine, and I will be fine. I am going to do this.

Aaaannnd, I'm back! *takes a bow*

7 comments:

Heather said...

Maybe you should do more yoga classes if they're that good for you lol.

Cherish This Life! said...

LOVE the last sentence!!!! I know you can do this and I am confident that you are in God's hands and He will protect you. You are one strong cookie and this is definitely not something you can't overcome...go for it girl!!!! PROUD OF YOU!

Life Happens said...

You go girl! Welcome back!!

~ifer said...

Welcome back :) You and your family are in my prayers.

Kate Austen said...

Great attitude. NOTHING is impossible.

Muah, Kate

Potters said...

Way to take control of your feelings and thoughts. I love that your work is offering yoga and ww. I am glad you are back. I missed ya!

AnxiousMummyto3 said...

Well done, awesome positive attitude! I'm here for you no matter what. Thankyou for your sweet comments.
MMM that meal sounds good :)